Update

Okaaaaayyy, well I started the 10cc's of Lu.pron this morning after much hesitation and anxious waiting. (oh, and my period is still here)

I set my alarm for 7:45 so I would be good and ready to make the dr. call at 8:00 when they open. I call immediately and the receptionist says neither of my nurses are available- can she take a message? Yes, please! I fill her in and she says she will have someone call me asap.

Exactly 55 minutes later, one of my nurses calls back.

"You're fine" she says. "Go ahead with the shot this morning. You have a suppression check Thursday, right?"she asks. "Yes, at 10:30-- Does me having a period mean we will have to cancel? That the lu.pron didn't do it's job last month?" I ask. She replies: "We will see Thursday @ the suppression check. For now, do the Lu.pron shots in the morning as scheduled."

Ladies, I gotta tell you. This does not ease my mind. I'm freaking out. I've been on the verge of tears ALL DAY. I 've tried to stay busy. Had lunch with a friend, took a short jaunt through a fav antique store with my MIL, and did some mall shopping with my mom... But I just can't shake the feeling that this cycle is going to be a bust. I know this is negative and I've tried SO HARD to stay positive through all of this.... but right now, my confidence bubble has popped.

Please keep all fingers and toes crossed for my Thursday appt. Apparently that will be the only thing that can calm me down now. {{thanks}}

trying not to freak out

Ok, so I woke up this morning with bad cramps. Like, pms cramps. I'm thinking "hmmm...wonder what it is... I am not supposed to be having a period with the lu.pron..must be indigestion from dinner."

2 hours later I get out of the shower to discover a thin line of bright red blood running down my inner thigh (sorry, tmi).

What. is. going. on?

I am not an 'official' ivf patient until Monday when I do my first shot so I don't have the weekend number of my fertility dr. I'm telling myself it's ok. That is just 'break through' bleeding. And that just like the last time I started Lu.pron I had to have a period first. I'm also telling myself it's just b/c it's my first month on it and maybe it's not totally in my system???

I'm just freaking out that when I go for my suppression check on Thursday they are going to tell me this month is a no-go b/c the lu.pron didn't suppress the endo enough (I mean, I'm having a light period!!!).

*sigh...I don't know what to think. Any suggestions or ideas? Did this happen to you on Lu.pron?

PS. I'm on cycle day 26...

Random Thoughts from My Day

1. an elementary school without children in it is just plain weird

2. amazing how much stuff kids can hide and lose under furniture

3. i am prepping my room for August like a crazy person b/c in my mind, i'm gonna start the new year in my first trimester and i won't want to be climbing up on furniture to hang stuff on walls

4. ivf meds start in less than a week!

5. i never joined the new gym. i should be exercising to counteract this lu.pron. ugh.

6. i haven't had any more 'baby dreams' since the one about a little baby girl in a green dress. this worries me a bit. but being as that the baby dream i did have was the only one i've ever had, maybe i shouldn't worry

7. i wish my little sadie girl wasn't so scared of rain, storms, and fireworks. this weekend and tonight have been a mess. poor pup has been under every bed in the house!

ok, all for now. gotta go make a reminder note for Z to pick up the ivf meds tomorrow!

We're on our way!!!

WEEEEE! We got SO MUCH accomplished @ our appt today! Z had his bloodwork done (no scarring and bruising for him) and we found out my blood work results (everything negative so I'm good to go!). Dr. K also did a trial run of the egg retrieval to make sure my cervix would accept the catheter. Good there, too! Then we met with our ivf nurse to go over all the meds, injections, schedule, etc... We got 'schooled' in injections (i'm good with the lu.pron shot since i've given myself shots before) but the foll.i.tism shot is something new. Building the thing before you even put medicine in it was all new for me!

Anyway, we got everything sorted out and headed for the elevator. On the way out the door, Dr. K and our ivf nurse were visiting with a couple in the lobby. They were introducing them to their 3 week old baby boy! The couple was so sweet and couldn't have been happier. They said they were so proud of the baby Dr. K helped them get! They said "it works- it really works!"

YES! That was such perfect timing for us to see. A real live baby born via ivf right there in front of us with beaming parents. Oh, yeah! We're on our way!!!

We'll pick up the injectibles next week and my first injection is Monday June 7th! It's really happening!!!!!!!!! And neither of us can stop smiling. :)

I fought and the sinus infection won

I have been battling this dreadful infection for 2 weeks. I was scared to go to the doctor and have any 'serious' medicine b/c I was worried it would affect the Lu.pron.

But this morning I woke up unable to breathe and feeling pretty dizzy. My head was so full of junk no amount of robi.tussin, mu.cin.ex, suda.fed, etc was gonna get through this. I went ahead to school b/c i have too much to wrap up before school is out, and I used a 'leave early pass' to get to the dr asap.

After 1 1/2 hours in the waiting room and a $75 copay (dang urgent care place- I almost left when I found out how much it was! yikes!) I FINALLY saw the doctor. He couldn't believe how bad the infection was. Gave me a big 'ole prescription for a.mox.icillan and sent me on my way.

But not before asking about the horrendous bruises on both of my arms. Yep, yet again I had to tell my fertility bloodwork appt tale. I hope to NEVER get that nurse/phlebotomist again! It's been a week and the bruises are now faded to a redish-brownish- yellowish color. the one on my right arm is still the size of a half dollar and the one on the left arm is the size of a baseball. Lovely.

ANYWAY, the important (what I feel was important) was that he shared HIS recent fertility journey with his wife! They went through ivf procedures a couple of months ago, it worked the first time, and they are now pregnant with twins! God knew I needed him as my doctor today...

Here's to the meds working quickly and the lu.pron side effects to stay away!!!

So Far, So GOOD!

I need some wood to knock on... but I gotta say, I'm feeling 'normal' so far! I am SO RELIEVED! To think how badly I fought this shot last summer. Though I shouldn't shout 'hooray' yet as it hasn't even been a week-- but still! I'm happy just knowing I've survived week one. :)

I sure don't want to go to work tomorrow but it's helpful to know there are only 10 more days with kids! Then June 3, summer is officially here!

L. Shot-- DONE!

Ahhhhh, the new abode. We are FINALLY moved in, though there are STILL things left at the other house-- office stuff, cleaning stuff, extra furniture, patio furniture, and stuff in the garage. Um, wow, that's a lot. And to think the new house is already full. hmmm...

Anyway, we're here and so far, it's super good! We've met lots of great neighbors, tried out some yummy restaurants, and we're looking forward to our first community event next weekend. :)

In the baby news segment of my life, I GOT THE SHOT!!! Oh my goodness I was a nervous wreck. All I kept thinking about was how after my lap last summer I did too much goo.gle research about Lu.pron and did everything I could to not have to take it. The 'possible' side effects are scary as hell. But, alas, here were are 11 months to the lap date later, and the shot was given this week. Tuesday actually. So far I'm good as gold. I haven't noticed anything (but major gas bubbles)- yet. But with my allergies/cold/sinus infection (I have no idea which I have!) I have been pretty distracted. Oh, and with it being the last month of school and all. Perfect timing!

So I do 28 days of this, then start the typical ivf protocol. We have an appt the last week of may for Z's bloodwork (I got mine Tuesday and still have the nasty bruises on my arms to prove it!), a trial run for the retrieval ('sounding' they call it), and we'll meet with the doc for discussion & schedule and the nurse for injection lessons. And I guess we'll also be ordering the mass quantities of other lovely drugs and needles.

But I don't care!!!! I'm super excited! And Z is elated! :) We are one step closer!