No Appt Yet & Should We Give it a Try on Our Own this Month?

Well I still don't have an appointment scheduled with the RE.  I started trying to make one at 10:15 this morning.  After lots of online registration forms and such and waiting for their lunch break to be over and waiting for my online forms to be printed and reviewed in the office, I was told around 2:00 that I would be called back shortly.  Well they closed at 3:30 and I never got called.  So we know what I'll be doing first thing in the morning.  She did say that she wants to get me in this month, though, so that's a relief!

In other news, we are trying to decide if we should 'give baby making a try this month'.  My gynecologist told us at the post-op appointment that we could try but that she didn't see it being successful due to my bum (but self-healing) left ovary.  She mentioned that we don't know which side will be ovulating this month.  And she also mentioned something about it 'creating a toxic environment for eggs'.  That scares me a bit.  But at the same time, I know my tubes are freshly cleared and I hate to let another month go by.  And, I am ashamed to say, we have not had sex since my surgery.  I know, I'm a bad wife.  I mean, he is fine thanks to 'other stuff' (*wink, wink) but I've just been a little scared.  I don't exactly what I'm scared of though. Another BBT stalking, pseudo pregnancy symptom, hopeful month only to be greeted by AF in August.  Scared it might hurt (seems like it should feel better now that the endo is cleared out).  Scared of an egg surviving the 'toxic environment' and making it--only to result in a miscarriage weeks later.  Or, scared of it actually working.  Scared that after all of this, our dream of a baby might actually come true.

Silly, isn't it?